So, I realize many of us were very sick prior to surgery (including me before colectomy). But, once better and moving on to step 2/3, how did you want to spend the last month/week/day before surgery?
Sometimes I think I should just nap all day (because I won't sleep well in the hospital)!
Then I think, maybe I should eat everything in sight (since my diet will be limited for a while)!
Other times I think I should party wild or travel (as I will be bedridden for some time)!
Or I should spend all day in the gym!
I don't want to overdo it or go to extremes, but I do feel like I am giving up exercise, partying, traveling, eating good foods by getting this surgery, so I should live it up beforehand. Why do I feel I won't be able to do these things again? I think I am reading online too much.
I look at the food in the grocery aisle and think I shouldn't even buy it because I won't be able to eat it. Ice cream, ketchup, cookies, fried chicken.... then I get depressed.
Why not keep the ostomy, I ask myself? Is it worth it? I don't know.
all I know is if I sit still, I drive myself crazy and get scared thinking about surgery