Casie, glad you found yourself over here. I felt the same way as you do about being embarrassed when I first was going to the CC. The surgeon told me what Sue did. Just because it doesn't affect your entire colon doesn't mean it doesn't make you very sick. The drugs aren't working anymore, you don't want to try biologics and you want your life back. Sounds like you are ready for surgery. You will feel so much better once you go for your consult.
I have to tell you that my new job is going well and the irony is that for many years I have wanted a private bathroom and have been so embarrassed because I have had to share a bathroom and have often times thought I wasn't going to make it. Well, now that I rarely have to go during the day (literally I have gone once during my workday since starting 2 weeks ago) I have a bathroom about 8 feet from my desk. It is a private women's bathroom and the only office around is mine and a hallway. So, so funny!
I'm so happy for you, I just wish you were going in earlier. The waiting and worrying is the worst part.