I just want to shout in to the void. I am so frigging tired of being in pain! Amd it is always out of the blue. My symptoms get worse during ovulation and periods. So every 7 to 10 days there is a high chance I am going to be in pain. This were going well this week till I had the audacity to be intimate with my partner. Now cramps from the moment I wake up.
I am 12 days in to my cycle, so around about the time I am ovulating. And my body is cramping up like I am having my period and my arse is an empathic barstard and doesn't want the my uterus to feel lonely so it has decided to act up as well.
It has now been 13 years, 13 years of just on and off pain. The body pain that comes from compensating from abdomen pain. My back is a mess because I was/am constantly tense from pain in my stomach. At least one hole is bleeding every month! When the stars a line at least 3 will bleed, vigina, arse and my nose. So been going in for iron infusions since last year because my blood won't stay in my pigging body. I always want to sleep due to low iron, get dizzy going up the stairs and struggling with the brain fog of low iron and possibly having adhd.
I know other people have it worse but I just want to scream and feel sorry for myself for at least 30 minutes without the guilt of "other people have it worse so buck your ideas up" comes creeping in to my head.
I am just angry, tired, upset and guilt ridden. I will change my mind set and find my happy self again, soon, but from the moment 😡😤😭🤬😓☹️🥺😡💩