Tuesday I went back to work outside of the house. Been working occasionally outside but mostly at home (yeah!)....I spent the last 6 months physically training for it, working out every morning, climbing hills & stairs, walking and running. Useless.
Nothing prepared my body for the hell that I have just put it through.
I have to walk 1 mile strait uphill, stairs & hill, at 6:30am, carrying books, hand-outs plus lunch etc...1.5hrs of transport running up and down the stairs in subway stations etc...
9hr day with 3hrs transportation and barely eating because the bathrooms are horrid (and my students are Out There waiting to get in.
Next day was a diffferent school, different city...same tranportation hell plus we had a full blackout for the whole day...No light in the bathroom. No emptying my kpouch in the dark (no emergency lights!!!)...our classroom has glass doors to the courtyard so there was light enough to teach (no audio-visuel) but after 9hrs there I couldn't stand it and took the train home...pouch was screaming!
After 3 days of running around the city my hips, legs and heals are killing me, my pouch hates me and I am a wreck!
I hate this, hate that my body won't let me be normal, that I have to fear going to work, am broken and in pain after only 3 days am limping horribly. I was so excited about going back, now I am already terrorised that I won't be able to do this for the whole year (4 universities, 4 different cities, 1.5hrs transport each way each day)...
I know that I am ranting but I hate being weak and broken...tendonitis is back with a vengence, sacroilitis is yelling, can't sleep from the pain and can't dope myself up of I can't concentrate....Damn this disease.
Sharon
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