Anyone else have chronic pain from adhesions? Acupuncture has been the answer for most of it, but lately I've gotten depressed about being sick. I don't need any "Don't make excuses for yourself" advice, I'm just looking for the perspective of someone else out there who might understand. My support system is lacking, to say the least. The other day my boyfriend told me to "stop being sad."
It's not that I'm sad, I'm disheartened. Since 2007 I have had one medical problem after the other. Things are much better than they once were, I'm mostly out of the woods, but I'm still recovering. I can't make it up the stairs without running out of breath, even when I was doing my PT regularly and walking everyday, I still have so much less strength and endurance than I did pre-2007.
I'm taking a required health class for my community college and it is bringing up a lot of issues. I found out my BMI is the highest it's been since I was on prednisone, my resting heart rate is really high, I'm concluding from some chapters that I will die sooner because I got sick so young and didn't properly recover.
For whatever reason--probably stress--my depression and pouchitis started to flare at the beginning of the semester. I started full-time, and now I'm down to three credits. I'm 26 and still finishing undergrad. I don't want to lose another semester to any of my illnesses, but the second my pain flares up and I feel weak, I want to give up and be done with it. I don't feel like I'll ever feel better again.
Long story short, I'm wondering how everyone finds their motivation. Or if anyone else struggles with a mental illness, how do you keep from focusing on the negative? How do you find hope for a healthier, stronger tomorrow? Maybe it's the lack of sunlight, maybe it's the flares, but I hardly feel like getting out of bed. The problem is, to anyone else, I have a valid excuse--I don't feel well--but let's be honest, I'll probably never feel 100% again, will I? That's hardly a reason to not get up in the morning.
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