I know Ive had 3 surgeries in 8 months and it's a lot of recovery time ( in those 8 months I've also managed to finish my clinicals, get my masters in occupational therapy, and plan a wedding)! But now that the takedown is over I find myself being hyper vigilant and analyzing every nuance my body has, staring at my stool to check for the pinpoint amount of blood there, and calling my doctors thinking I have pouchitis 2 weeks in!
The feeling like its all going to come crashing down and I'm still going to be sick or my pouch will fail is ever present.
I feel so anxious now and almost like PTSD . Is this normal how'd you all feel? I've thought about seeing a therapist but do they have therapists who specialize in the effects of UC or an auto immune disease or chronic illness ?
I feel like I can work through it but im also sick of it. How do I get rid of this constant worry that I'm going to be sick again or everything will fail?
Did anyone have a mini post surgery mood issue? I've also notice I'm very labile for a couple weeks after surgery. Ahhhhh