Hello All. I come with a more… sensitive topic today, and I would like to know your thoughts and experiences (those who are comfortable of course). I’ve been struggling lately with guilt after eating things that should be ‘avoided’ by jpouchers. I’ve got a real sweet tooth, but sugar makes me go watery, and sometimes if I overdo it I go watery for a few days straight. I hate watery stools and they just make me anxious and I much rather have pasty stools. But I’m human. Cravings are real and depriving yourself of food you want can be really challenging mentally. So whenever I do lean into these cravings of sugar, I feel a horrible guilt because I know that it wasn’t good for me.
It’s difficult because sometimes I’ll have watery stools after sugar and sometimes I don’t, and the whole guessing game is nerve wracking. So, this guilt after eating sugar is just down right terrible, but I can’t shake the thoughts away. I consider myself a mentally strong person, after almost dying at 15 from UC I had to learn the hard way unfortunatley, I’m sure many of you can relate. Does anyone else share this guilt experience? Any suggestions? I think I’ll bring it up to my therapist next session to see what she thinks.
Thank you all,