Usually, I'm not phased, at all, before surgery, but, ever since I began my anti-anxiety meds 3 years ago, surgery is absolute hell on earth, and the most frightening thing you could ever experience. For some, as of yet, unknown reason, I react horribly to the anaesthetia meds! When I'm waking up, it feels like I'm loosing my mind, like I'm trapped in someone else's mind aka disassociation. I can only describe it as feeling like I'm trapped in a nightmare, I don't know who, or where, I am. Neither I, nor my doctors, know why, but previous to my anti-anxiety meds, I had zero problems after surgery, I'd just wake up groggy and in pain like everyone else. Now, I'm afraid to wake up! Have any of you ever had this happen to you? It takes about 12-24 hours to start snapping out of it, after my 9 hour surgery last June I literally thought I was dead, and that I was a ghost. The nurses told me I was acting really weird, and kept trying to pull out all my IV'S, O2 mask, catheters, drains and wires. They had to restrain me to get me to stop, now, I don't mind being handcuffed to a bed, as long as a little diner and soft music are part of it, but this was not my idea of a good time! Every time I try to describe this to a doctor, they look at me like I have worms coming it of my nose! If any of you have encountered something similar, please, let me know. Also, for those of you who've had valve revision, how tough was your recovery? Any and all info would be very much appreciated!
Cheers,
Eric
