I wrote a very long and tearful post (in my head) but decided not to post it (may have pushed others over the edge)...
The bottom line is that I am in such constant pain, can barely walk, sleep is no relief and work, which is my passion, has me in tears...can barely get there, subways are torture...walking which I love scares the daylights out of me now and I am using a cane.
There is no relief anywhere. I am now getting red, scally patches on my body ( face and elsewhere).
I cannot plan a vacation with hubby because I can no longer walk around, I have cut my work scheduel down to 2.5 days/week and even that is killing me.
I am only 55...is this it? Done? No more life...just ever increasing pain in more body parts...? Even eating is no pleasure any more because my taste buds are gone.
There are days when it is so hard to remain optimistic.
Just feeling like there is not light at the end of this very long tunnel.
Sorry if I am not my usual optimistic self but the pain is insane.