Hi, i had bad colitis for two years and then had my colon removed at 21. now at almost 25 i am not feeling totally better, and one of the biggest struggles is feeling emotionally well. i had an eating disorder before i was diagnosed with uc, so i feel like i brought the ibd upon myself. yes, it's definitely in my family--my uncle died from it in the 80's, they didn't know enough about it then i'm sure. they did *** up on my surgery and instead of being incapacitated a couple months, i was sick until i was halfway through being 22. two full years have gone by since the successful reconnect, but i spend so much of my day just feeling different and ultimately disgusting, cleaning poop of the toilet seats makes me want to vomit and cry at the same time, it's so shameful. i am finally going back to school but i don't know what else i'm going to do in my life with work or my relationships or when i can get health insurance again so i can start taking better care of myself. i'm just nowhere that i thought i'd be by 25. i blame myself and i'm ashamed of myself, it's truly difficult staying positive. i've heard that uc is most often diagnosed in your twenties, so how come i haven't met any other people my age going through this? i spent most of 21 and 22 on a sixteen to twenty hour iv drip through a picc line. how am i supposed to jump back into the real world after something like that? i just can't recover, every time i bounce back to life i seem to bounce right back into bed somehow--january c. diff and now i find out i have polycystic ovary syndrome--and then i don't much see the point in leaving said mattress. any pointers?
Thanks,
Kelsey
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