so rustedfox from what I can discern you are seeking encouragement to move forward with a jpouch? i am glad to see the many positive affirmations as candidly often the internet can be a place to uncover problems as opposed to success stories. and i would also say that while my life is far from perfect, regardless i would elect to have the same surgery again as its alternative, living and fighting a diseased colon was not a pleasant game. i think at the end of the day as long as you are cognizant that generally surgery doesn't return you to mother nature's original state, it can dramatically improve your quality of life. good luck in your journey.