Asa,
Things will get better. I have now been a poucher for 13+ years. I kept a journal for the first couple years. Foods, bm, meds, sleep habits, loss of the ostomy, etc. Now days when i get a little down, i retrieve the journal and see how far i have come. Really helps on the tough days. You will make it. Remember, He will never give us more than we can bear.
Dr. B