I love this post. I definitely have poop envy, I miss the days of feeling normal and being carefree and spontaneous. I miss the days of being able to fart normally. I wish I could have just 1 solid poop again. I wish everyone wouldnt be aware of when i am in the bathroom. I miss just being able to pee. I love the look of my husbands cute little perfectly shaped 💩
I used to get embarrassed for the sounds my butt made in the bathroom, but now i just let er rip and I dont care because it feels good hahaa.
I grieve the loss of normalcy on occasion, but there is nothing I can do to change this. So i accept this is my only life - so im going to live it. Heck, people in the world are still suffering with IBD and the collitis I once had, and that is definitely worse than my minor daily issues.
After 28 years with this pouch I am still trying to figure out if i can eliminate nightly incontinence. I can't trust my butt when im out. I havent been able to achieve the type of poop i want, like the 3 or 4 times daily my surgeon falsely promised before my surgery.
I recently started taking more metamucil with each meal and 1 immodium around 9pm, and it is better, but not perfect. I prefer slowing things naturally with food and fibre rather than medicines if possible.
Anyways, my thoughts for the day. Happy pooping to fellow all j-pouchers.
Ps. Is there a way of changing our username Im not really that frustrated lol. Cheers!