Cdub,
Thank you for your kind words...it is like living on a roller coaster..;I celebrated the fact that my body was healing beautifully after the galbladder and I was feeling better than in yrs...and then my surgeon reminded me that I still need valve surgery, I am not out of trouble yet and that it is, no matter what, another 10.000€ and I just don't have them. (private medicine)...my galbladder was 6.000€!!!!! and there is not a job in site and my body/soul/life is in shambles.
I am a natural optimist, believe in 'all for the good...' and that something good is waiting for me just around the corner etc...but there are days when my dreams just tumble off the road and I end up in a gully...wondering how I got there.
Friends are marrying their kids, celebrating their graduation from university etc and I am counting surgeries! I want to be able to say 'ouch' in front of a loved one without them calling 911!!!!! I need to be able to talk about something other than sickness and disease...rambling again...sorry.
I will never be normal and most of my life is over so it isn't a tragedy...but I am angy at this disease for stealing my best years!
Sharon