Hi Frances
It is hard at times isn't it. Especially when you were doing so well for so long you kind of forget all the problems of the past. I can understand why you feel sad and angry...you have a lot you are trying to cope with and with no end in sight. I imagine you feel disappointed that things have gotten so hard. It's hard to keep the chin up all the time! You might want to take some time to do some self-care...whatever works for you that's relaxing and soothing. Do you do meditation? Do you like to take baths by candlelight? How about a massage or a pedicure and manicure. Indulge yourself as a distraction and give yourself a break from the all this - it can do wonders to help you rebuild your strength and resilience. It won't fix things but perhaps it will lift your mood and bring a new hope for the future. I will say a prayer that things start going better for you.