Thank you for your responses
its real hard - but I keep trying
just a couple of of other questions
I now get a sensation just inside my anus like when I had uc , like an itchy spasmodic razor blade feeling which makes me want to go - is this right ??
secondly my butt gets wet and makes me sore but no sign of any stain / faetal output, just like a wet mucous - no stool leakage but still spiky & sore - is this normal ?