Hang in there. I had a lot of problems the first year or so. I also suffer from clinical depression and anxiety which are finally under control with meds and supplements and therapy. Are you getting any help for your mental issues? After 10 years with the pouch, I can say life is pretty good. Of course there are always the minor inconveniences that "normal" people don't have to deal with. I am sorry you are going through all this at once, I know it can seem overwhelming. I wish there was something I could do for you. Just take it one day ... one moment at a time.