I have been having a very hard time with my Pouch and with my life. I started getting pain in my butt several years ago. it started out small and became debilitating over the years. It"s the same story that I have seen in several posts. I have had MRI CT and Ultrasound tests done. I have also had exploratory surgery and nothing can be found. The pain is absolutely off the charts. I thought I was a pretty rugged person, but this is just too much.
as if that wasn't bad enough, my now ex wife left me because she was so tired of it ruling our lives. The thing is I still love her and am not taking it very well. I mean the pain is bad enough, but to have her walk out on me was just so hard to take. She became so abusive over time.
I am so alone now I have moved to a town close to my Mother because she is the only Family I have. Friends disappeared along time ago. when your illness is like mine it's hard to have a social life. I live in Portland Oregon. I have been trying to find a Jpouch support group but haven't had any luck as of yet.
The loneliness is getting very hard for me. My self esteem is so low right now I feel like i'm in a dark hole.