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Hi Guys, 

Well, the 1st week of mourning is over and the rest of my life begins again as an orphan...although you cannot call it that when you are over 50 I guess...just someone who lost both parents...

The loss is great...huge really. Not that you can compare it to anything else...just that it 'is' and nothing else is ever the same again.

I try to think back about who I am and how I became the person that I am (good or bad) and I know that my dad is behind most of it...

He was never a 'pick up a kitten kind of guy' but more 'save a baby squirrel from starvation in the winter' type.

He taught me not to give a guy a nickle towards food but to buy him a hot meal sitting down in a decent restaurant (my mom was green during the whole meal!)...he taught me to help the kid in the next bed because just because you were suffering did not mean that someone else did not need your help too.

He taught me to put aside my pain to help others.

He never gave in to his pain...but always had a kiss, a flower or a crooked smile to give to those in needed.

In the hospital (when he was amputated 2 yrs ago) he kept kissing the hands of the nurses who treated him...told them that they were beautiful and would whistle a tune for them (he could barely speak by then).

So, in that spirit I will keep up doing what I do and trying to be a better me in helping those who need it...

Angie, you will be able to give once your pain is under control and you feel strong enough...for now you take what you need to fill that need...do not force it...just let it come to you....We all suffer in greater of smaller ways, some daily and some sporadically...there are no rules.

The one who has suffered their whole life is not better off than the one who just started...you never get used to it...but maybe you become wiser and more able to handle it...

Just enjoy the good moments and push through the bad...

We are here...WE are Here...WE ARE HERE..(direct quote from Horton hears a Who) ...we will always (God willing) be here.

Sharon

ps. Thank you all for being here for me

S

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