I do not know if the word 'better' is going to fit me for a while...maybe numb would work?
I am in physical pain, but less so thank you codeine...for all of my surgeries It was a point of honor to drop the pain meds when the i.v came out...just tylenol or similar...now I can barely move my arm...sleeping through the night is impossible...so the codeine dulls the pain...and allows me to not feel..Which helps my brain and heart and soul right now too.
My best friend just flew 5000 miles to be by my side...I could not live this without her...my twin soul, my double, my daddy's other daughter...so at least one person on this continent who knew him can reminisce with me.
She has been there through teenage IBD, gracilis flap surgery (x2), Pouch surgeries so numerous that we have given up counting...she has handed me clean clothing in public washrooms, filled my syringe (and bought them for me!), changed my stinky dressings, carried my leg-bag for me and laughed with me until my tears flowed (she has also handed me her credit card and told me not to worry that as long as she was alive my surgeries would be covered)...now she had been to the surgeon with me to have my sutures out, yelled at him (yes, She yells at surgeons!) for the type of suture he used and allowed me to cry in her arms.
I could not exist without her.
Right now she is sleeping on my sofa like I slept on hers for 8 months and 5 surgeries...
Yes, you guys are my saviours, my life's blood, my north, south, east and west...she is my soul.
I could not survive without all of you in my life.
Sharon