Hi Austin, I just want to caution you not to try to dilate without a professional, like a surgeon. You could do serious damage to your sphincter muscle. I'm one of those people that has to self dilate because of a stricture. My surgeon did the first dilation, and I do it periodically to keep the opening. He did this with Hegar dilators. I think you need to go back to your GI or surgeon and see what they think is possible. I understand it has to be hell for you, and I'm not saying it's not possible, I'm just saying do it right. Remember that we've all walked through hell before our pouches. Good luck, I hope you find a doctor that can help you.
Aimee