Oh... And to answer your other question on plane sailing.
It has definitely not been that. Just the complete opposite.
I am a heck of a lot better than the start. I almost died on the third surgery. And actually wanted too. That bad. I lost 50 pounds. I was only 176 to begin with and cried when I looked in the mirror. I avoided mirrors. I have only gained 18 back and have a ways to go.
I have good days... But bad days outnumber them still.
I also am still positive about the whole thing. I believe deep down I will get better at it. With it... And it will get better.
Richard.