I have had my j-pouch for 8 years. Surgery did not go well. Lost 35 lbs. have PSC, bronchioistis severe leg cramps, osteoporosis, I am a small woman to begin with. I am down to 94 lbs. Hard to digest food. Take a lot of vitamins. Prolia injection, At least 1x during week I take an oxycodone I take atovan at night to sleep and take Lomotil in morning also vsl#3 packet. I get depressed often I had asperated pneumonia this past winter. I feel like I am falling apart also. I have always been healthy and now I am depressed most of the time because I don't feel well. I have grandchildren and want to be apart of there life. I feel so bad sometimes because I can't do the things I used to do. I don't want to live on pills. I try to help myself , it just doesn't work. If I didn't have to eat I would be fine lol I know some of you are worse, and I truly wish everyone gets thru all of this. I have been on this site for along time now and many of you have helped me thru a lot of issues that was going on. It seems no one understands unless they go thru this. I guess I just want to vent and thank everyone for helping. You are the only ones that understand Thanks for listening. Grace