It sounds like you are doing amazingly well. I remember my first few weeks at home. I wanted my ostomy back so badly because it was predictable and I had grown used to it. I don't think I slept through the night for the first 6 months with my j-pouch. I wore briefs to bed for a very long time and used an incontinence pad on my bed for about a year. I am now 9 years post j-pouch and loving it.