I am so sorry that you are living in this hell...a lot of us here really do understand what it feels like to not be able to catch a break, feel like your life is no longer your own but belongs to the bathroom..I won't repeat what the others have asked you...I am sure that you have considered it, thought about it and even spoken to your surgeon about it...so my question is why are all of your surgeries leading to more surgeries? Why are you so locked up with scar tissue that your pouch is 'stiff'...and what can be done to give you and your poor little body some relief...Can they temporarily unhook you and see if it gives you some relief? Would you be willing to try?...I can't imagine how frustrated and angry you must be at all of this...How can we help you? Is there anything that we can do other than read and listen and lend you a shoulder?
For now, hugs and as much support as I can give...