I am so glad you are doing better.
I am 15 years out, and the first several years were a very difficult transition. Just remember, each day where you are at healing wise is just a train stop along the way, but not your final destination. The stop might feel gross, be difficult and stinky and not what you expected. But it's not permanent.
I always tell myself to not buy real estate in those spots, because we are heading somewhere else at the end of this journey. And where I am going is better than the stinky train station.
Anxiety often means that your body is stressed out and is trying to tell you that. Be very gentle with yourself and your body. The body never lies, just our mind does! Our mind will tell us not to feel things we feel, or think things we think. Allow yourself to relax in order to let your fight or flight system to change back to normal so you can heal. Cortisol levels make it so that the healing slows.
For me the controlling of stress was a game changer. Nurturing and Gentle.