Hello, thank you for all your comments and rich discussion. In saying that " it's almost like PTSD, I meant that I have a recurrent fear that this isn't over and keep having nightmares about the future rather than e past. It's more an likely anxiety though.
To contribute to your discussion about PTSD vs. anxiety disorder, PTSD is a subset of an anxiety disorder both can be acute. http://ptsd.about.com/od/ptsdbasics/a/PTSDinDSM5.htm here's a link for more info regarding the definition of PTSD in the new DSM V.
Anyways, I more than likely have some anxiety, but only acutely as I am still functioning pretty well. It's more when I'm alone that my anxiety and thoughts get more intense. I've experienced this with the past 2 surgeries but always had the next surgery to focus on. I think being that is is over I struggling more with thinking it can't really be over and I'm still not okay.
It's comforting knowing that others have had these thoughts processes after takedown as well, so thank you for that.
In response to the labile question, I meant labile as in mood instability. I find myself snapping or crying on the drop of a hat. I was like this on prednisone, but I got off it 8 months ago. I think the lability is more in relation to the stress of everything going on.
I think I'm going to wade this one out for a bit and see if this can blow over. If I'm still struggling in a couple weeks I think I'll find a therapist who can help me get over this fear that I'm still sick and hyper vigilance of checking my body and stool constantly!
Thank you!