Erica, I just want to add a "hang in there". Be kind and gentle with yourself. This surgery takes quite a bit of an adjustment both on your body and mind. I have been away from this forum for quite some time. Happened to see a survey email and popped in to respond. Glad I could respond to you, as well. I still remember feeling many of the same things that you expressed. Please know that many people have this surgery and after an adjustment period go on to live their life and never look back. The beginning months can be difficult. Get the help you need now whether it is seeing your surgeon and having him reassure you that you are on the path to good health once again, taking it easy for a bit of time more or any of the other suggestions above. Best to you!