Sharon,
Your response was so timely. I have not been the easiest person to live with these last four month or the many years prior I'm certain. My wife has been by my side fro beginning an continues to stand by me to support me anyway she can. But it has definitely taken its toll on her. I am coming to terms with my circumstances. I have been so self absorbed trying to figure things out that I haven't been there for her in way that I used to be. It resinated with me when I read what you wrote. "It takes me 1000% more effort just to make it out the door or out of bed but I do it for him." I need to do it for my wife because she misses her best friend. I have not been a happy camper for the last four months. You are right, happiness is a gift we gave ourselves. We are responsible for making our own happiness not just for ourselves but for those around us especially the ones who stand by our side in our darkest hours. Its like you said, "at the end of the day, what matters most are our loved ones". I wish you and yours a blessed New Year.
THE KID