Can relate to all of you above - every single story. I do not are for getting old and all the health issues - but, when we were born into our bodies- we got what we got. I take some comfort in knowing that everyone eventually faces this if they live long enough. When I'm not in awful pain or nausea or something, it really is a gift. For me, that means painting- I paint like someone possessed
I know everyone handles this differently -I am extremely introverted, and I love a day with no plans and my paints...and no pain or nausea...that's how I know I'm not depressed - because I still get pleasure from something. Boy - there were years when I got pleasure in nothing. So, I take not being clinically depressed as a gift and not in huge pain as a gift...in other word - entirely changed my expectations as to what a "good" day is as I've aged. I do feel about 10 or so years older than I am - that's got to be all the health stuff - when you've dealt with health issues since you were a kid...well, it takes it out of ya - who wouldn't have a harder time...I think you all are wonderful and I think we are probably way too hard on ourselves regarding so many things. I feel like I have a little online family of folks who get it - and that has been priceless to me. I can't get into new GI until April 18 - long wait when I am really worried. Well, is what it is. If I feel bad enough I'll go to ER. I was freaking out that I have cancer - did this for 2 days - then, thought, "well, if I do - I'll just join the ranks" - and so forth - have to flip my thinking a lot to cope with all this - I imagine that is part of aging without going insane! Thanks to you all for the support, stories, and sharing - it has been beyond helpful to me.
