Good Luck to you my friend. I think you have been through the really awful part but there is much healing to do. I was fairly young and had no idea what was going to happen and all I can say is attitude is everything. Yours sounds really positive. Feel free to reach out to me This site is where I got ALL my strength NOT kidding. It took me a long time to find this group because I was so defeated. Keep your spirits up and your dr. on speed dial and again please reach out if just to say hi!!