Anytime Li, we are sisters in recovery. I check on this site often and will always reply. Jaydog's answer is really insightful. There may be times when you get very down and it makes it hard to reach out Your body will be adjusting to your new design. It takes time and it will be hard no doubt. But keep your resolve and know that this too will pass and the best part for me is knowing we are not alone. EVER. ☺️😊