Rondac, you are probably right...but it does not mean that you have to suffer forever...there are ways of dealing with it, people to help and some that you can talk with...I is very hard, I know and it is very frustrating to finally be well only to be pulled back into anxiety and panic for almost no reason but you need to talk it through with someone.
Not everyone likes the idea or can afford a therapist and sometimes they cannot understand our unique type of PTSD or why we have it. Maybe you could find a group (or start one in your area) of other J pouchers who can get together occasionally and share some of your stresses and fears.
Isolation and hiding make things worse. I do not know if the people around you know about your pouch or what you have been through but if you do not feel able to talk about it then the stress just builds up and comes out in very uncomfortable ways.
Take good care of yourself
Sharon