I am just seeing this. Your doctor was supposed to be back yesterday and I truly hope you are feeling better and can get help from him or her. You have been through it, I see. Please know that you are very strong to have endured all that you have. Life is not fair, that's for sure, but we all see your strength and hear the frustration you have in enduring all of this. Are you any better from the time you posted this? All of my good thoughts and prayers are coming your way.