Sally,
I can only send love and hope...that is all that I own...and the honest belief that if we cannot control our bodies, at least we can control our minds...or how we respond to all the crap that is thrown at us daily...ps. when in doubt, blow bubbles...I have never seen anyone sad while blowing bubbles.
...Some days the only thing that gets me up and putting one foot in front of the other is knowing that the step-grand kids are coming for lunch or the step daughter expects (nicely so) her weekly cakes and her lunch doggy-bag...I make the meals & pastry more and more elaborate (Chinese new year feast) or organise something strange and exciting...I don't do it for me (I usually complain and b-tch while doing it but smile none the less) but just to force myself to not stay & spread on the sofa...I need the challenges to move forward...I know that I have every excuse in the world to stay in bed but If I ever allow myself to do it I may never get up again...If I don't exercise I am in so much pain that I can't move so I exercise, If I don't cook, I eat junk, so I cook...it is not courage or strength but fear that keeps me doing all of this and the knowledge that this can all fall apart in an instant...and that it already has, a few times...
TE, I am just thrilled that you have the strength and courage to get up and move forward every day...you have enough challenges for a dzn people and you are facing them all with beauty and grace...
Sharon