I hope it goes away, but as long as we are waiting for the other medical shoe to drop it is hard to make yourself carry on like before.
I don't remember the name of the 20 something beautiful actress I saw on TV the other day, but she helped me have a light bulb moment the other day. The results of her latest testing said she was cancer free. She still had no hair but was beaming. She said she was so happy to be "cured" and she wasn't taking life for granted anymore. She was beaming and I am truly happy for her. On the other hand I was jealous as she is cured and I am not. My light bulb moment is I think I'm never going to be cured. I have other medical issues besides my UC and j-pouch and each day is a huge chore.
I admire your drive Sharon. I just don't have it in me at the moment. We often know what is best for us but can't muster up the drive to do it. I worked many years pushing myself even with a UC/IBS & Fibro diagnosises. I don't have that in me anymore. We can tell ourselves there is no reason to be depressed and have anxiety but I can't "suck it up" anymore.
Sally, I don't know what your other losses were but loosing your daughter is the worst thing I can imagine. You are grieving and there are many different stages of grief.