Hi Sharon and TE for your all of your help as always. Sharon: losing my husband and then my sister and my job was the start of all of this, so you're right, it is the stress that's causing all of this and I can't seem to get a handle on it. You've been through so much and I admire you to have been able to help yourself and go on with your life as best as you can.
I have seen three psychologists, and instead of getting better, I just get worse. It's almost like I want to feel this way. I have been trying to "stay in the moment" and talk to myself but it doesn't help. TE: I've tried adult coloring, but my problem usually doesn't happen when I'm home, it's only when I'm out and about. I guess I'll just have to bite the bullet and try harder.
Thanks again for all of your help.