I am sorry to read of your panic regarding going back to ostomy. I can only reflect on my history as a potential positive. When I lost my colon to UC >20 yrs ago, the 6 month period between colectomy and having my new Jpouch all hooked up (3 step surgery) were the absolute best I have felt physically in 30+ yrs. No question. I keep my pouch now for all the reasons one hangs onto a less-than-perfect situation (pouchitis...remicade...sterlara...cipro...), but hold onto hope that someday I can get much better health back if the pouch ever gets to be too much. Not sure if that helps, but it does sound like you are going to get a spell of good weather ahead!